Sunday, January 30, 2011

Run for it......


You know those days when really nothing in the world has gone wrong but yet you feel awful. Today is one of those days the kind of day where you just wish you could figure out what the Hell is wrong with you. So you think to yourself well of course for me, my weight, procrastination, time management horrible mothering skills and being the most awful daughter to my dad are the first to come to my mind but those are not the kinds of things I am talking about here. Today its just about being the worst person to yourself. Forgetting that you need you time. The kind of time where you do read a book or craft, watch that favorite movie that you have been missing so much. Taking that time to be with your Best Friend......which I hope for most of you is yourself.. I am the worst best friend really I am. I am way to self centered and forget about the important things that I truly need to function. I talk about it all the time. YOU NEED TO SING!!!!! Do I do it no....OK I sing in the shower or in the car but that doesn't count. I need to sing with people or for a purpose because when I do. I am myself I am ME again!!............ Why do we let go of things that were so important to us in our past that we lose ourselves in the future? don't we care about how we will feel then or do we really just think that we will never let it get that bad.....then the day comes 6 years later and your dying inside, your soul needs to sing and the cruel thing is you have lost your voice and I mean that literally. Its winter and you can hardly talk let alone sing. So you lay in your bed at 2 in morning crying because you have no voice........So my Friends the Question is why are we so mean to our best friend? Our Self......You are always invited to be yourself so come to the party

Saturday, January 1, 2011

S-P-E-L-L......I hate to spell!!


S-P-E-L-L.....I love to spell S-P-E-L-L.......I love to spell......Its 10am and the TV is blaring this song because if you have a child under the age of 6, I am sure you watch Super Why and you have heard this song many times and all I can think to myself is I HATE TO SPELL. I am really one of the worst spellers in the world. I know this about myself and really I am ok with it most of the time but even spell check can't figure out what word I am trying to say....... it's pretty bad. The worst part is I know how to spell it way wrong so that I can click on the word and find the right spelling with the wrong one. Lame.....I know. I really should just learn the real spelling. I am also really bad with my grammar so if you can't stand the way I write or type. I am sorry but I know it won't change I will always put dot dot dot........and capitalize when I shouldn't and write really long run on sentences because I always have. I think it had a lot to do with growing up. I mean with a last name like English it is expected of you to be good at it naturally. I am totally not that person. In fact I struggle to say the least. I enjoy writing and always have but I rearly do it because of my grammar and spelling well NO world! I am going to write and if you would like to read it enjoy!